MEMOIR PROJECT, 2019
Memoir Project: Five Books
BOOK ONE: My Islamic Village (1940’s,1950’s)
BOOK TWO: My Westernization (1960’s, 1970’s)
BOOK THREE: Coming to America (1980’s, 1990’s)
BOOK FOUR: 9/11, My Return to Islam (2000’s, 2010’s)
BOOK FIVE: Am I a Westerner? (2020’s)
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BOOK ONE:
My Islamic Village (1940’s, 1950’s)
1.Three tribes: Father’s Kababeesh. Mother’s Bidairiyya. Region’s Nubians:
(a) Kababeesh (Bedouins): Grandfather Idris. Grandfather Taloudi.
(b) Bidairiya (Sailors): Grandfather Bashari. Grandmother Bit-Ali.
© Nubians (Farmers): Their “Molook” (Kings). Our Nubianization.
(d) Falaleeh (Traders, Farmers): Descendants of Egyptian Immigrants. Brought “civilization”: Abu-Yousif.
(e) Abeed (Farmers, Helpers): Descendants of slaves. Me befriended them: Abdul-Hadi.
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2. Three civilizations: Pharaohs. Christianity. Islam:
(a) Pharaohs: Kerma Civilization. Played among statues. Remnants in culture.
(b) Christianity: Visited Old Churches. Remnants in culture.
© Islam: Overwhelming. Others “Kafirs” (infidels).
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3. Islam: Sufism:
(a) Idrisiyya: Origin. ”Zikr.” “Moulid”(Prophet’s Birthday). Sayed Almo’iz
(b) Khatmiyya: Origin. “Madeeh” (Prophet’s Praise). Sheikh Fadul.
© Mahdiyya: Origin. “Al-Ratib” (Mahdi’s Prayers Book). Sheikh Ali Jara.
(d) Madrasa (Khalwa):Koranic Education. Sheikh Munawar.
(e) Jesus in Sufism.
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4. My Father, the Village Shaman:
(a) Rebel against tribe. Madrasa graduate. Inter-tribal Marriage.
(b) Islamic chants: God. Prophets. Saints.
© Islamic medicine: Prayers. Herbs. Writings.
(d) Others: Possessed Spirits: “Zar.” “Amal.”
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5. My Grandmother, the Family Matriarch:
(a) Widow: 4 boys, 3 girls.
(b) Merchant: On donkey’s back. Tent in “Souk” (Market).
© Coffee-making rituals: First, roast the beans.
(d) Coffee poems: Home-sick. “Khawajat” (White people).
(e) Support: Village “Aristocrat” Kortawi. Mayor Al-Malik.
(f) Ethics teacher: Me man of the house.
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6. British rule:
(a) My first “Khawaja” (White man), “Khawajiya” (White woman).
(b) Western Civilization: Nile River’s steamers, school, post office, hospital.
© School: English language. Merits, not tribes.
(d) Radio (Arabic): BBC. Voice of America.
(e) Father: “Whites brought civilization, but are infidel.”
(f) Grandfather Al-Noor: Security guard for British offcials.
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7. Egyptian influence:
(a) Egyptian immigrants. Radio Cairo. Turkish “Zaffa” (Parade).
(b) King Farouk’s Mosque: Abdul-Samad’s Koran. Naqshabandi’s “Burda.”
© Villagers in Egypt: Cooks, servants, door-men: Wali. Osman.
(d) Nasser/Arab Nationalism.
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8. Nationalism and Independence:
(a) Mentor-teachers: Communist Farouk. Islamist Amin. Westernized Tameem
(b) Nationalism in curriculum: Shawqi. Ibrahim. Al-Abbasi. Taha.
© Westernization in curriculum: Sudan’s “Daraweesh” (Fanatics).
(d) Father: “Egyptian flag has a crescent, but British flag has crosses.”
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9. Village Culture:
(a) Power of Religion.
(b) Men-Women Relations.
© Weddings. Songs. Death.
(d) Leaving the Village.
(e) Others: Salih. Altayeb. Khair. Almalik.
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BOOK TWO:
My Westernization (1960’s, 1970’s)
1.British education:
High School:
(a) British Culture: Teachers. Curriculums. “Khawajat” (white people).
(b) Arabic Culture: Teachers. Curriculums. No women. Boys sex. Big Moniem. “Martin Luther.”
© Mentor-teachers: British Harvey. Christian Theodora. Islamist Al-Hawwari.
(d) Me: Cultural shock. Rebel. Choices. Decisions.
(e) Self-Analysis: 4 S’s: Smart. Serious. “Sympatico.” Superior.
University:
(a) Western curriculum: Democracy. Capitalism. Communism.
(b) Western mentor-teachers: American Duncan. American Ford.
© American Library: “Paradise.” Chants for America.
(e) “Alsahafa” translator: “Time”, “Newsweek”, “IHT.”
(f) Westernization: German Club. Swedish Dreams. “Khawajiyat.”
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2. Becoming a Journalist:
(a) Background: Intermediate school, high school, university.
(b) Westernization: Foreign Editor. BBC. VOA. Reuters.
© Embassies: Communist. Baathist. “Imperialist.”
(d) Critical of US: Israel. Vietnam. American “Zonooj” (Negroes).
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3. Village Culture vs. City Culture:
(a) City Culture Shock: Inferiority complex. Jokes. Other new-comers.
(b) Urbanized: Sports. Songs. Movies: Egyptian. American.
© City “Aristocrats”:
(d) Christians. Jews. European Immigrants.
(e) Secularization: No Prayers. No Ramadan. No Mosques. First liquor. First prostitute.
(f) Men-Women: Sexism. Prostitution. Homosexuality.
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4. Traditionalism vs. Westernization:
Traditionalism:
(a) Power of Religion.
(b) CityTribalism, City Mind.
© Poems/Songs. “Madeeh.” “Moulid.” “Zikr”: Ghareeballah. Hamadalneel.
Westernization:
(a) Books: Western: “Fanny Hill” “Lady Chatterly’s Lover” “Middle East History”
(b) Books: Muslims Studied in West: Tahtawi. Hussein. Al-Aqad. Al-Hakeem. “Rose Al-Yousif.”
© Interviews: Sudanese Studied in West: Al-Tayeb. Salih. Abdul-Hai.
(d) Poems/Songs: Western Technology. Women: “Khawajiya.” Local Christians (Masalma). Light-skinned.
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5. Islamism vs. Secularism:
Islamism:
(a) Books: Afghani. Abdu. Al-Banna. Gutub. Gutub. Khalid. Huwaidi. Haddara.
(b) Interviews: Amara. Turabi. Omer.Taha. Badri. Ghanouchi. Al-Shati.
Secularism:
(a) Books: Abdul-Raziq. Anton. Wahba. Darwin. Frued.
(b) Interviews: Communists (Mahjoub. Nuqud. Makki). Socialists (Baha-Aldeen. Al-Alim). Independents (Zarooq. Mukhtar). Buddhist (Mustafa). Existensionalist (Al-Hilo).
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6. Arabism vs. Africanism:
Arabism:
(b) Books: Al-Husari. Hussein. Al-Aqqad. Al-Hakeem. Mahfooz. Abanoodi. Sharqawi. Hakki. Nasser. Haikal. Aflaq. LouisAwad.
(b) Interviews: Gabbani. Mahmoud. Jumblat. Aziz. Jaheen. Al-Haj. Shawi. Awad.
© Poems/Songs: Sudanese. Arabs. Patriotism. Love.
Africanism:
(a) Books: “African Nationalism.” “Negritude” “The Wretched.” “Black Skin.” My B.Sc. thesis: African Unity.
(b) Interviews: Al-Hassan. Ibrahim. Al-Faitoori. Abbakar. Ahmed.
© Poems/Songs: Kabli. Makeba (S.Africa).
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7. Civilian governments vs. military governments.
Civilian:
(a) First Democracy: Me very nationalist.
(b) Second Democracy: Me enjoyed “the Golden 1/2 Decade.”
Military:
(a) First Military: Me avoided domestic news.
(b) Second Military: Me declined editorship.
© Pro-Military Westernized Elite. Left to America.
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8. North vs. South.
(a) First Southerner I met, in village.
(b) M.Sc. thesis on South.
© Covering South: War, Peace.
(d) Muslims’ arrogance. Muslims in denial.
(e) Killing Southerners: Big Moneim
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BOOK FOUR:
Coming to America
1. World-Wide Travels:
1. Greece: Greek Civilization. British girl.
2. Italy: Roman Civilization. Pizza. Spaghetti.
3. Vatican: Christianity. The Pope.
4. Russia: Communism. Women.
5. S. Korea: Buddhism. Temple.
6. India: Hinduism. Temple. Prostitutes/Poverty.
7. Saudi Arabia: Islam. Oil. Royal Family.
8. Pakistan: Madrasa. Kashmir.
9. Iran: Zoroastrianism. Shah days.
10. Uganda: Paganism. Powerful Church. Muslims.
11. Nigeria: Islam vs. Christianity. Divide Line.
12. Mauritania: Slaves, Slave-owners.
13. Mali: Timbuktu. African Socialism.
14. Egypt: Pharaohs. Nubians. Women.
15. Lebanon: Arab Racism. Christian Arabs.
16. Mexico: Browns. “Negro.”
17. Brazil: Blacks. “Sympatico”
18. Argentina: Whites. Military rule.
19. US: Churches. Synagogues. Native Indian Temple. Atheist House. Satan Temple.
2. Foreigner in a Foreign Land:
1.”Khawaja” (White Man) Complex:
(a) West Colonialism: Superiority Complex. White Man’s Burden.
(b) Inferiority Complex: Africans, Arabs. Even oil-rich.
© Others: Australians. Latinos. Asians. Even Chinese.
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2. Cultural Shock:
(a) Men-Women: Nudity. “Free Sex.”
(b) Guns: First time held a gun.
© “Nice Americans” (not killers, like in movies, like in Vietnam).
(d) Land of Plenty: Consumerism. Extreme Luxury.
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3. America:
(a) Freedom: Excitement Covering Washington.
(b) Individualism: No ‘Salamu Alaikum.” No “Azan” (Call to Prayer)
© Justice: Watergate. Iran-gate.
(d) Technology: Xerox. Fax. ColorTV. Stereo. Cassette recorder.
(e) Christianity: What makes America tick?
(f) Secularism: But, “Under God.”
(g) Rationalism: But, emotions: fear, love, hate.
(h) Capitalism: Reaganomics. My Failed Investments.
(i) Journalist in Washington: “Al-Madina,” “Al-Majalla.” “Asharq Alawsat.”
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4. Whites-Blacks Relations:
(a) Indiana U: Africans vs. Black Americans.
(b) Ronald Reagan vs. Jessie Jackson.
© Blacks Inferiority Complex: Negroes/Blacks/Africans.
(d) Whites Superiority Complex: Power. Injustice. Denial. Guilt.
(e) Blonde Hair vs. Black Hair: What is Beauty?
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5, Men-Women Relations.
(a) Indiana U: Americans. Muslims. Sudanese.
(b) Sexual Harassment.
© What Do Women Want? How Do Men Feel?
(d) Men Homosexuality.
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6. Muslims:
(a) Black Muslims: Muhammad Ali. Malcolm X. Farrakhan. ”Roots.”
(b) Non-Arab Muslims. Non-Muslim Arabs.
(b) Covering Conferences: “Da’awa” (Spread Islam). Marriage. Children.
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7. Arabs:
(a) Arab Americans Puzzled: Me Arab!
(b) Arab Immigrants’ “Racism”: Me African.
© Arabism: US. Politics. Language. Accents. Jokes.
(d) Leaders: Maksoud. Said. Abu-Rizk. Nofel.
(e) Books: “Arab Mind.” “Who is an Arab?”
(f) Visiting Arabs: Al-Qusaibi. Al-Radwi. Mansour. Salibi.
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8. Other Foreigners:
(a) British: Friend (Update: Village “Khawaja”).
(b) French: “Let us eat pate.”
© Italian: “Our pizza”
(d) German: “We will rise again.”
(e) Korean: Visit. Proud Asians.
(f) Vietnamese: Ex-General. Barbers.
(g) Chinese: Love/Hate. Whitening. “Dangerous”.
(h) Japanese: Super-White.
(i) Somalis: Proud of Islam, Africa.
(j) Ethiopians: Christianity Helps.
(k) Turks: “The Ottomans Will Rise Again.”
(l) Iranians: “Hollywood’s Sunset Blv. Shahs.”
(m) Sudanese: Stay? Return?
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9. Americanize or Return Home?:
(a) Foreigner: Fear Of. Fear From.
(b) English Language: A Word A Day?
© Inter-Foreigners’ Envy: Americanization competition.
(d) Self-Analysis: Serious? Yes. Smart? No. “Sympatico”? Yes/No. Superior? No.
(e) Home Memories: Moon-Lighted Nights by Nile River.
(f) But at Home: No Feedom. Life Difficult. People Coming to America.
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FAMILY, DEPRESSION DECADE (1990’s):
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1.Becoming a citizen:
(a) The day.
(b) Proud: Carry Passport. Try Anthem. “America the Beautiful.” My Chants about America.
© Books: Jefferson. Tocqueville. Paine. Webster. “Manifesto Destiny” “City-on-Hill.” “American Dream.”
(d) Fall of Nixon. Fall of Communism: Havel’s visit. Me Reagan “supporter.”
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2. Confusion, Disappointments:
(a) US Military Intervention in the Gulf: “Kill Them.”
(b) Arabs: Anger. Depression. Psych.
© US Politicians: Bought book: “Cynicism.”
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3. Raising a family:
(a) Wife: Love Letters. Quiet/Shy. Discipline. Hard work.
(b) Wife’s Parents: Rejection, Acceptance. Foreigner/Nice.
© Children: Son, 2 Daughters.
(d) Growing-up: Kindergarten. Elementary School. Burke Lake Park. South Run Rec. Swimming. Baseball. Basketball. Soccer. Dance. Florida. Boone, NC.
(e) Bi-Racial.
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4. Children and Religion:
(a) Porch classes: Moses’ 10 Commandments. Jesus’ 10. Koran’s 10.
(b) Mosques: Pakistani. Saudi. Afghani.
© Churches: UU. Baptist. Catholic. Methodist.
(d) Synagogues: But, no to school.
(e) Hindu Temples: Goddesses. Food.
(f) Buddhist Temples: Buddha. Food.
(g) Occasions: Christmas. Eid. Halloween. Lent. The Dead Day.
(h) Secular/Religious Prayers: Grace. Bed-time. “Start Your Day.”
(i) Cooking Food: Cultures. Religions (Jewish).
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5. Valium, Librium, Ativan:
(a) Tension-Headache: Dr .Philaforte: “Enjoy Your Children.”
(b) High BP: Dr. A: “Relax.”
© Psychologist: Dr. Sue: “In Your Head.”
(d) Psychiatric: Dr. Stein: “Mental Disorder?”
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6. Counseling:
(a) Group Counseling: Dr. Samuel: Stress Management.
(b) Single Counseling: Dr. White: “No Religion Please.”
© Religious Counseling: Rev. Lyndon Johnson: Center Prayer.
(b) Catholic Counseling: Confessions.
(d) Return to Mosque: Counseling. Prayers.
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7. Yoga:
(a) UU Church: Spiritualism/Stress Management.
(b) South Run: Water Yoga
© Wakefield: Breathing. Aromatherapy.
(d) Springfield: Steaming Yoga.
(e) Fairfax: Screaming. Crying.
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8. Return to Sufism:
(a) What is “hum, hum”?
(b) “Peace, peace.” “Jesus, Jesus.”
© Update Village Chanting: “Hai” and “Qayoom.”
(d) Asian Muslims: Malaysians, Indonesians.
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BOOK FOUR:
9/11, Return to Islam
1. 9/11 Attacks:
(a) Where was I? Uncontrollable cry; don’t know why.
(b) Checking Neighbors.
© Son’s Op-Ed: “Dad Crying on the Phone.”
(d) Churches: Methodist: Patriotism + Spirituality. UU: Concern.
(e) Others: Where were you?
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2. “War on Terrorism.” “Why They Hate Us?”
(a) Afghanistan Invasion.
(b) Iraq Invasion.
© Americans: With. Against.
(d) Muslims: With. Against. Here. There.
(e) Fear: FBI. DHS. My Op-Eds.
(f) Politicians: from “Cynicism” to Despise. Blacks: Powel. Rice. Rice.
(g) American Journalists: Respect, Despise: Maher. Donahue. Helen. Jennings. Arnett.
(h) Health: Blood Pressure. Diabetes.
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3. IRS: It Is Religion, Stupid:
(a) Religions and Wars: Europe. Western Christian Colonialization. British Christian wars in Sudan.
(b) 9/11: “Born Again” Christians: Christian Movies. “Cocoon.” “Love your Children.”
(a) Methodist Church: “Last Fortress.” Study Christianity. Christian Manners.
© Jewish Synagogue: Op-Eds. My Funeral.
(d) Buddhist New Year: Fear of Muslims. Burma, Thailand.
(e) Washington Interfaith (Update): 9/11 Fear.
(f) Fasting Ramadan in Monastery.
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3. Return to Islam:
(a) Muslims: Fear. Confusion. Depression. Contradictions. Denials. Inferiority Complex.
(b) Direct study of Quran: No “Fatwas.” No “Ulama” (Scholars). No Politics.
© Straight to God; No Prophet Mohammad.
(e) Books: French Muslim Garoudi. British Armstrong.
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4. Study the Quran:
(a) Greenway, Boone, NC, Burke Lake Park, VA. From Cassette to I Phone. Abdul-Samad “Tajweed” Reciting.
(b) Surprises: God in my ear. God’s Power. Repetitions.
© 2/3 about Christianity, Judaism. ½ about Jews; mostly negative.
(d) Women.
(e) Slavery.
(f) No Secularism.
(g) Terrorism or Jihad?
(h) Not all “Moslimoon” are “Mominoon” (Faithful). Quran Addresses “Mominoon,” never “Moslimoon.”
(i) Exclusivity/Superiority.
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6. New identity:
(a) Muslim First, American Second. Op-Ed.
(b) My Color Has Nothing To Do With My Identity.
© Faith is The Core of My Identity.
(d) Others’ Faiths: God. Cow. Statue. Self.
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6. White House:
(a) Started Op-Eds in US Newspapers.
(b) First Demonstrations: Darfur. Iraq. Palestine. Somalia.
© Sidrat, White House 2-men “cell”: Bin Laden Speeches. Islam, “Al-Thawra” (Revolution).
© White House occasional, lonely, and silent, vigil: “WHAT IS TERRORISM?” and “WHAT IS ISLAM?” “UNTIL I DIE!”
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RETURN: TO VILLAGE
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1. Return to the Village:
(a) Father’s death: Day of mourning.
(b) Visit Graves: Grandfathers: Idris, Taloudi, Bashari. Grandmother Bit Ali. Abu-Yousif. Sheikh Munawar. Kourtawi. Abdul-Hadi.
© Visit Al-Qa’ab, Father’s origins.
(d) Visit Al-Affad, Mother’s origins.
(e) Culture: Cellphone. Satellite TV: Hoola watching “Payton Place.”
(f) Power of Religion: “Alsalamu Alaikum”: Village vs. Washington,
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2. Return to the City:
(a) Update: Village-City Conflict: Family. Others.
(b) Update: Traditionalism vs. Westernization: Satellites’ TV. Internet.
© Update: Islamism vs. Secularism: Islamic military government. Westernized Elite.
(d) Update: Arabism vs. Africanism: Oil Arabs’ influence.
(e) Update: North vs. South: South Secession; Blame US.
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3. Return to Muslim Countries:
(a) Update: Saudi Arabia, Gulf: Powers: Money. Faith.
(b) Update: Egypt: Islamic Awakening. Setback.
© Update: Lebanon: Arabism: Race. Gender. Politics. Corruption. East/West.
© Update: African Countries: Democracy. Technology. China
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BOOK FIVE:
Am I a Westerner?
UPDATE AMERICA DECADE (2010’s):
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1.Re-discovering the Americans:
(a) Return from Village: Koran Power.
(b) Quiet American: Freedom. Individualism. Quietness. Silence. Breathing. Spiritualism.
(b) No “Alsalamu Alaikum.” No “Azan.” Not even “Hi”: Neighborhood. Commuters. Subway. Buses. Offices. Hallways. Bathrooms. Meetings. National Press Club.
© Don’t Care (DC).
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2. Re-discovering myself:
(a) Me Quiet too: “Out-quite you.”
(b) Update Self-Analysis: 4 S’s: Smart. Serious. “Simpatico.” Superior.
© Higher Moral Grounds. American Power, Arrogance, Injustice, Denial, Fear (Islamophobia).
(d) Sometimes Arrogant Muslim American (Faith Over Country).
(e) Still “Foreigner”: Gma: “Your country.” Family: “You 3Worlder”
(f) New Sufism: “AllahuAkbar” (God Is The Greatest). “Alhamdullilah” (Thanks to God). “Ya Lateef” (Mercy Lord). Mysticism: “Al-Shaitan” (The Devil).
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3. Update This Great Western Civilization:
(a) Caribbean Cruises: Whites vs. Blacks
(b) European Cruises: Cathedrals. Castles. Museums. Battlefields.
© European Cruises: Freedom. Individualism. Secularism. Rationalism. Technology.
(d) Demure: No Denial. Submit, but not Faithful.
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4. Update Quran Power (“WMD”):
(a) Cruises: Listening to Koran Among Bikini Women.
(b) Guantanamo: “Kafir, Don’t Touch Koran.”
© Koran, “Weapon of Mass Destruction” (WMD).
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5. Update Family.
(a) Myself: Physical Health (BP,D,Ear). Mental Health (Sufism, SubConVApolcapla)
(b) Children: High School: Dating. Sex. Drugs. Crimes. Violence. Horror.
© Children: College: Freedom. Individualism. Secularism. Rationalism. Debates: Diversity. Relative Morality. Sexuality.
(d) Wife: from Liberal to Conservative.
(e) Man vs. 3 Women: Daughters Back Home. “Men from…” What Do Women Want? (Update).
(f) Technology.
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6. Update America:
(a) Update: War On Terrorism: Books. American Denial.
(b) Update: Men-Women: What Do Women Want? What Do Men Feel?
© Update: Blacks-Whites: Obama. Blacks Inferiority Complex.
(d) Update: Politicians’ Cynicism: Jewish Lobby. “Allahu Akbar.”
(e) Update: Culture: Generations X, Y. I-Generation.
(f) Update: Journalism.
(g) Update: Religions, Spiritualties.
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7. Update Foreigners:
(a) Second Generation.
(b) Browning of America: Whites Fear.
© Muslims: Here To Stay.
(d) Those Who Failed to Come.
(e) Those Who Came, Returned Home to Die.
(f) Sudanese: Westernized Elite. Eager Immigrants. New Generation.
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LAST: ME A WESTERNER?
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1. Philosophies:
(a) Civilizations. (b) Freedom. © Individualism. (d) Capitalism. (e) Conservatism. (f) Liberalism. (g) Globalism. (h) Humanism. (i) Naturalism. (j) Rationalism. (k) Emotionalism. (l) Spirituality. (m) Secularism. (n) Power. (o) Happiness. (p) Luck. (q) Love. (r) Intuition. (s) Subtlety.
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2. Me:
(a) Culture: Race. Gender. Foreigners. Religions/Spiritualities.
(b) Shortcomings: Arts and Literature: Novels. Songs. Opera. Theatre.
© Family in America: My Westernization.
(d) Family in Sudan: East Is East, West is West. The Internet.
(e) Thinking: Shyness. Fear. Idealist/Realist.
(f) Koran: Women. Wives. Children. Money. Praying.
(g) American Breathing, Yoga Breathing, Religious Breathing
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3. Future:
(a) American: Power, Arrogance, Injustice. Denial. Guilt. Apology. Repent.
(b) Islamophobia.
© Koran and the West (not Koran vs. the West). Saudis and Americans (not Saudis vs. Americans).
(d) AMERICA: EXTRENE FREEDOM: Gay Marriage. Public Guns? Public Nudity? Bestiality?
(e) QURAN: EXTREME JUSTICE: “Quran the Problem”; not the Solution. After 100 years. After 1,000 years.
(f) #WarOnTerrorismEndless #WarByTerroristEndless #AmericansFearForeigners #WhitesFearNonWhites #ChristiansFearMuslims #AmericaWithJewsAgainstMuslims #Voting60Percent #Voting100MillionDidnot #KoranPower #MuslimsPride #MercyLord #Yalateef
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4. White House vigil — “until I die!”
(a) Dream: Win big lottery, buy apartment by White House (Checked area). Donations from oil-Arabs. Now, finish this Memoir Project.
(b) Plans: Stool When Can’t Stand. Wheel-Chair When Can’t Walk. Hi-Tech Sign.
© Ultimately: Die in front of the White House holding my Sign
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